For those of you who are interested: my life is really great at the moment. I am literally working my ass off, both at school and at my job, but it's really awesome! I also had a great talk with one of my friends last night, plus another good friend of mine won a water polo match yesterday! YAY, good for him, he's awesome :-)) later s.
... "Azi am decis sa zic ce-am de zis As vrea sa stii Ca mi-ai placut din prima zi cand te-am vazut N-am indraznit si am tacut Daca as jura, poate nu-ti place Si-ai prefera sa-ti sau pace Dar eu nebun, chiar daca taci Iti spun cat de mult imi placi"
You absolutely know when something is about to end and I'm not talking necessarily about relationships. It can be a friendship, a situation you felt comfortable with (or not), a feeling, hey, even a party :-) So my question here to you is should one try to do something to stop it from happening?(now I'm strictly referring to relationships, be it between you and a loved one or between you and a very dear friend). Should one desperately cling to the hope that things can be worked out? Does one still call his/her friend, in the desperate illusion that one call will recreate the sense of intimacy and happiness that those 2 friends once shared? Or should one just give up and "move on"? I mean, one can find other friends, right? One just needs to know how to open up again to another person and there you have it: a new best friend, a new human being whose shoulder one can borrow and cry on. Is letting go and giving up a sign that you're growing up and you are now able to manage a situation with dignity and accept the hard facts? Ending something is never fun. The end of a friendship is both the beginning of a mourning period and of a healing process. If you're on the receiving end, meaning if you were the person that was "dumped", you feel crappy and rejected at best and wonder what went wrong and whether it was your fault. If instead you're the one that ends it, you keep asking yourself, whether you did the right thing or maybe the most horrible mistake in your entire life. I guess most of the time the end comes from growing apart, you stop calling or you're waiting to see how long it takes for your friend to call and while waiting you start doing other things, realize there are other people you can have fun with on the planet and if your friend doesn't care about you, why should you? So what should one do? I'm not sure I have the answer, but I'm really inclining to say the word "closure"...I just don't want to say it out loud
Maybe it's because I start writing on a post mostly in the evening, after being under so much stress during the day and under the pressure of knowing that I have a ton of other things that need to be finished, but I can't escape the feeling that people in general have no idea what happiness is. They have no idea what makes them happy, or maybe they do, but they're just afraid to act on it. Am I happy? I guess. Have I always been happy? No. What do I do to be happy? I have no idea. Why? Because I don't take the time to think about it. I am afraid that if I do it, I'll unleash demons that shouldn't see the light of day and I'll realize I've been fooling myself all along. Sure, I enjoy a good talk with a dear friend (you know who you are and you know how much your advice means to me), and after that I can say I am happy, but as one of my good friends the other day said: YOU make happiness happen. Sometimes I wonder, what is it that I want? Why do I keep pushing myself and others around me? Why am I so unhappy when a certain person just does not want to be helped? Why can't I accept people just the way they are? Why do I get upset when certain "friends" only call me when they need something? Why does it bother me when a certain someone didn't tell me the truth about a situation? Why does it bother me when I get the feeling that the same person doesn't really care about me?
I was working out the other evening and I usually let my thoughts run around free in my head during training. And I found myself running faster and faster because that gave me the feeling that I was in total control and that I was getting rid of all the negative energy...
yeah, i know, a friend of mine, after reading this post, would remind me of the "98% rule", but it's just something I have been thinking about.
I know some of you might think these quizzes are at least in the vicinity of silly, but I still like to take them
You are a Career Girl!
You may not be a CEO yet, but you're well on your way to success. You take your career seriously, and you wouldn't stop working for any guy! An independent woman, you pay for your own car, clothes, and housing. And men appreciate that - at least, the ones as driven as you are.
I love this band...the lyrics aren't too bright,but even so, I'm always listening to it before going to a party; it puts you in a really good mood :-) bytheway party...Festa Ticinese again, next Thursday!! YAY!!!
So I took this test that's supposed to tell me whether I'm a shopaholic or not...come on people, don't make me state the obvious :-) I know at least one person who was totally appalled (!!!!) that I spent $25 on a keychain...you know who you are :-)))))
You Are A Total Shopaholic!
You have a keen eye for spotting trends before they are hot And sometimes your credit rating takes a beating as a result Consider a job in retail to subsidize your gorgeous outfits Over time, you could become a famous stylist or designer!
so it's Friday again, which basically is a day which you want to pass as quickly as possible so the real fun can begin:) Still, I had to come to work this morning (yeah, that right, get up early, take the train to Zurich, etc) coz i have a lot of meetings lined up. And when entering the building and the elevator I was amazed how not cramed it was:) the downside of it though is that I am almost all alone here. If you can imagine, I was even able to get a desk by the window (which btw, if u were working here is a HUGE deal :-) ). So I'm going to get a coffee and enjoy it at my desk, looking out the window from the 10th floor...
